I saw beauty.

We went to the Grand Canyon and there are no words to express the Beauty that I saw there.  It made me know how small I am.

Oh well, HELL!

Every time I start feeling like I might be coming out of the funk something happens to pull me back in.
I am still having the headaches but I THINK that it is coming from me gritting my teeth at night.  So I need to get some mouth guards to see if that will help.  Now my shoulder has started bothering me.  It's always something.  And now every twinge is the cancer coming back!
The shoulder is on the right (side of BC) and it aches so bad, especially in the morning.  It seems to dwindle in pain during the day but every day for the last 4-5 days it has hurt so bad that I have had to move my mouse pad to the left side and let the shoulder just hang. Hard to type or write this way.
I am scheduled to see my onc. in December and in January it will have been a year since a bone scan so I think I will request he schedule one for me in January.  If this continues though I am going to have to put my arm in a sling.  Two week rule now in affect.  If it lasts that long then it probably means something is really wrong.
I am 99% sure it is not BC...it's that 1% that bothers me.

Time

It may be a cliche' but I am coming around to believe that "Time really does heal all wounds."