Stage 2

Next week is Stage 2 in my reconstruction.  It is a day surgery where they will perform liposuction on the parts of my breasts that are not symmetrical.  They may also tackle some fat necrosis.  I will be  in and out that day.   I am looking forward to getting the hamburger buns out from underneath my arms.  And he will raise the left one so that it is aligned with the right one.  May be the first time in my life that they will be symmetrical.  Weird.
I am doing better, overall, but still have more bad days than good.  I also have an appointment with my oncologist next week and I will talk to him about feeling bad, headaches, hand tremors, etc.  All the things that are freaking me out and the fact that I stay freaked out all the time now.  I am hoping he can help.
I wonder if I am depressed because I feel bad all the time or if I feel bad all the time because I am depressed.  Chicken or the egg?